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Friday, September 19, 2008
Finding the Motivation
Hello world. It is I - the rolly polly ball of rican mush. Yes I am feeling quite discouraged due to my eating of a burrito and a sandwich yesterday. I have been good today (eggs and non-fat latte for breakfast) so far but what I really struggle with is staying away from booze and bread. Why were burgers and sandwiches invented? I could eat the things stuffed in a burrito or in a sandwich and be FINE!!! But instead I insist on a panini. There is just something magical about wrapping melted cheese, meat and veggies into a delightful, carb-based wrapper that negates the need for silverware. The other issue is booze. I am currently getting my MBA. There is a plethora of social networking events that require schmoozing and cocktails. I am a social person. I am also a cocktail person. You can see where this headed - no where good. I HATE the thought of giving up wine or cocktails for a diet. HATE it. But what can I do? How can I grow the willpower to say no? How can I stay away from the tasty goodness of burgers and sandwiches? Pizza is not a problem, pasta is not a problem. Even rice is not a problem (although I will miss handrolls). Why must I be burdended with a bread moratorium? I need help. I need my support group. I need someone to tell me that I shouldn't go to Happy Hour this afternoon. But if one of you brave souls attempts to do as such, be forewarned, I will likely tell you to go f*** yourself and go drink anyway. Its Friday, I'm bored and I need social lubrication to make friends. Just sayin'.
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I can't pretend that this situation is anything other than annoying and difficult, and unfortunately, even more so for you, given your unique blend of personal circumstances.
I will share with you my epiphany. I have a stinking feeling that this may be a really stupid epiphany, but whatever. Sometime in August, I realized that if I want to lose weight, for real, I will have to do without and that it will suck. Not that it has to be awful and unmaintainable, but it will certainly not be pleasurable, and I will have to sacrifice. Moreover, I will have to sacrifice A LOT. I have been somewhat successfully at sacrificing about 75% of the time, and then giving in the other 25% of the time, and this has only led me to maintain a weight I am not satisfied with, while still feeling deprived.
(oh my goodness, this is going to be such a long comment, I hope I don't get cut off).
Honestly, Liz and conversations with you kind of made me realize that last part. That was a separate epiphany that someone else brought to the table.
I am so sick of not feeling as beautiful and healthy and confident as I could be, and I decided that I must fix this - I owe it to myself. And you do too. For me, this means giving up things I really enjoy, and avoiding tempting situations. It is indubitably going to make me sad. But I have to do whatever I need to make this happen. I will be angry that I can't go to happy hour, I will be upset that I can't go to lunch with my coworkers, and I may even cry when I can't comfort myself from stress with a nice meal out. I am going to be cranky and tired. But I know if I push through all that for a while, I will get results, and that the sacrifice is temporary.
(okay, TBC in next comment)
You have a ton of changes going on right now in your life - new job, MBA opportunity, new love life, new home - which makes this a lot harder. Even with all this, I think you can do it. You are so strong. In fact, I think you are so strong that you won't need to make some of the sacrifices that I need to. I am fairly certain that you have more will power than I, and you seem to have better judgement with food when you go out and drink that I do.
I think you can compromise with yourself: go out and have drinks X times a week, maybe half as often or whatever, and limit yourself to X drinks each time. The rest of the time, eat fantastic. Just be a wonderful birdie with your South Beach consistently.
Make your hardcore sacrifice with the food, and a smaller sacrifice with the going out, and I think you will be very very successful.
I think you should accept the fact that your social situation necessitates your being a boozehound. And then you should stop using that as an excuse, but rather try to factor it into your reality. I accept the fact that you need to drink in order to find people interesting, but these people do not become more interesting through sandwich buns or tortilla wraps. If only..
Therefore, I think you should stop thinking of booze as a dilemma, and just think of wine and cocktails as your eggs, nuts, and cheese -- the foundation of a solid diet. I'm not sayin' it's going to work, but it might. And it will get you out of the holding pattern you're in now.
Yes/No?
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