I weighed myself this morning. The scale has not budged. I feel like no matter how much I sacrifice, I am just not getting the results I want (and feel I deserve). In fact, I feel like that there isn't much point in putting myself through this misery. I am tired, irritable and hungry all the damn time. If this is the way its going to be, I would rather just accept my propensity to be rotund and get back to Thai noodles and cheeseburgers asap. I know I need to be patient but I have not had any changes in 5 days. FIVE DAYS. That is obscene and ridiculous. But worst of all, beyond demoralizing. Let's add to this abortion of a day by my finding out that all my work in generational demographic research and workforce planning has rubbed some of the more "mature" and "talented" employees in HR the wrong way because they think they are being made obsolete by younger workers. I am sorry but when 93% of your workforce is under 45, it just makes fiscal and practical sense to focus on the majority of your workforce and the workforce demographic you are anticipating in the future. You have to change with the times! Ugh. I got quite the email after my presentation yesterday when I talked about how T-Mobile should look at leveraging learning solutions that resonate with the Gen X and Gen Y workers. Somehow we should instead allocate a shitload of funds for 7% of the population that will be retiring in the next few years. Uhh... seriously? Grr.I am clearly holding on by a thread and it is frail. Please friends, tell my why I should continue this charade when I am sooo obviously failing and unhappy? :(
5 comments:
Abridged List of Reasons to Continue:
1) ***You are going to lose weight soon.***
a) I didn't change for 8 days. 8 DAYS. Then I lost 2.5 pounds. Should I have stopped? Hells no. I wanted to, but I am soooo happy I didn't.
b) You are being spectacularly good, and it is just not possible for you to not lose weight soon.
2) *** Hula Hula Celebration. ***
Zombies, Chicken Wings, and Song.
3) *** Girl's Victory trip to PR ***
a) You and Liz and I on a beach in a bathing suit not feeling embarrassed but feeling beautiful and free
b) Tropical Drinks
c) Wait, why am I trying to convince you that a trip to paradise is awesome?
d) If we all lose the weight, this will happen for real.
4) *** You aren't failing, you are rocking it. ***
a) 5.5 lbs in a little over a week. That is ridiculously successful. I am sorry. It just is.
5) ***I am selfish and I want to share this joy with you. ***
Fine, that one isn't the most convincing :)
Let me tell you, I hit rockbottom freakshow this weekend, but I continued. I felt pretty much the same way. I am SOO thankful that I didn't quit. I am SOOOO happy. Do we both have a propensity to gain weight? Yes. But we both have been at weights in our lives that made us feel MORE CONFIDENT and MORE BEAUTIFUL and we DESERVE to be there again.
As P Diddy says, anything worthwhile is going to be hard.
People are poops. What a ridiculous pile of pettiness. They are hating because you rule and what you are talking about super important. They wish they were a bright star like you are.
I can't get over how petty that is. I really can't.
And stupid.
That too.
Oh - irrational as well.
Jealous.
Don't let these jerks drag you down. Keep doing what you are doing and they can DEAL.
P.S. I can't wait to go to on tropical girls getaway.
Your string looks like the Nuva ring. Just fyi. hahahahahahaha
1. You can do this. South Beach TOTALLY works in waves. You'll have 4 days of consecutive weight loss, followed by, as you say, FIVE DAYS of nothing, followed by a ridiculous 3 pound drop. Stick with it.
2. I second the tropical getaway. It sounds spectacular. If we do that, I promise to drink too much and vomit near you.
3. I have been saying for a long time that I hate everyone. I think you'll find that if you really think about it, that you'll really hate much more than 7% of your company. You probably hate more like 99%.
4. I just made chicken, onion, pepper, salsa, and cheddar cheese stirfry with heaps of sour cream, and washed it down with a low carb tapioca pudding. I am stuffed. If you are hungry, you need to eat more. No one says you have to eat salads!
5. Loves loves loves.
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